Poem – Why not today?

I’m one hell of a good procrastinator; I always have been. I remember first thinking that there was something very wrong with my drinking at some point in my mid twenties. Each and every nausea-filled morning commute I made silent vows that I wouldn’t drink today. Every evening I would end up back in the bar getting hammered with my hard-drinking colleagues. If I drank enough I could forget there was a problem and it drowned out that tiny, quiet voice deep within that begged me to do something different.

Almost twenty years later I finally broke out of the ‘I’ll deal with it later’ cycle and I’m currently almost six months sober. I do wish I’d done this years ago but hey, better late than never. So, why not have a sober day today? It doesn’t matter whether it’s one in a long string of sober days or another day one. Even if it’s the very first sober day in your adult life, each sober day is a victory.

Have a lovely weekend 🙂 xwhynottodal

Why not today?

You are going to quit, just not today

What’s the rush? you think

Maybe tomorrow? I hear you say

Wolfie gives me a big sly wink

Or maybe next week? There’s an idea

One last weekend to riot

It’s a busy month, my friends are all here

Maybe next month? Then I’ll be quiet

You don’t think it’s wise to hurry and push

Life is for living you know

There’s always next year, what’s the big rush?

You’re still only young, time will go slow

Without your permission the years jump ahead

Plans fall apart, dreams fade and die

Yeah, I’ll quit soon, you repeatedly said

Why not today? You glower and sigh

Maybe next decade? That will be time

to slow down and settle myself

Yes, later you say. And then I’ll be fine

I still have my money, my mind and my health

Later creeps in, as quick as a flash

Breaking your body and dimming your sight

The life in your veins a dwindling stash

You’re starting to fear that long dark night

You can’t quit now! You need your best friend

The one that’s two-faced and sold you all lies

Who’s going to comfort me, right till the end?

The one that hid truth and stifled the cries

of your heart in the dark, it’s magic unfound

Your true life unlived, your time has run out

Too many laters, much skirting around

the issue at hand. Too much fear and doubt

I’m leaving you now, the false friend decides

so many will follow you here

My next victim waits for their fantasy ride

Hoping to take away all pain and fear

So long, no hard feelings, it was just a con

but maybe it’s still not too late?

For your heart to flourish and sing its song

For your eyes to open and soul to wake

So scream and shout, grieve and cry

then cast it out, don’t allow it to take

and more of your life, it’s time to fly

So, why not today? It’s worth a try

 

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